Emptiness

This is something I've been hearing a lot - "do what you love". 
But the thing is, I don't know what I love.
But I know one thing.
Right now, I'm doing something I don't have any feelings for.
I truly envy those people who have an aim in life, the people who God appears to have given some sort of mission to accomplish.
But here I am, once again, the lost, lone ranger.
Yes, I have always been alone.
Never been able to relate to anyone properly.
I've never had a friend to whom I can open up.
I've never felt close enough to anyone, to let them into my life.
No, not even my mother, although she is somewhere close.
But no, not even her.
Not a single person, although no one can be perfect.
Even love cheated me, by pretending to be love.
It left me feeling empty, struggling to find myself.
But I still haven't.
I wait for those days to come, days when I'll have paid for all my sins and have a purpose for living.
Until then... I wallow in ignorance.